Carpe Diem!

***Today, I realized how tender a human heart can be yet you will be surprised how it can be so strong on tough situations.****

I am still at work but my mind is somewhere else. I am smiling and joking around but I feel like there’s something gripping inside of me.

I actually do not know how I feel.. I am lost.. I cannot find any description of what’s inside my mind.

The only thing clear to me is that I need somebody to push me up because I can barely stand…. But who? While everyone else expect me to be the one to lift them up.

September 22, 2008, 10 pm

You are stuck in a traffic.. it’s raining and you’re already late. You are riding on a PUJ with a half a dozen sleeping people from a night shift work. Just when you needed to hurry and you’re really anxious to catch the first trip of your company shuttle service, the jeepney turned right and took the route which is going to pass the public market… oohhh pleeaasssee!!!

When you finally reached the terminal, the first shuttle has left.. now you will have to wait for another 15 minutes for the last trip to go.

At the office, when you usually start your day having breakfast at the cafeteria.. you order the usual stuff (b’fast meal and 3 in 1 coffee). Then you were told “sorry ma’am walang kape”. That’s it! Your frustration has reached the highest level!

Your day is always busy.. beating deadlines and accommodating calls from very “challenging” people… you wanted to go home by 6:00 pm but you knew well that you can’t. Stayed for 2 hours more and home at last by 9:30 pm.

This is life.. perfect. It is with no sarcasm when I say life is “perfect”. Come to think of it.. those frustrations and challenges are always present in our daily lives. Without them.. life is going to be one hell of a boring journey.

We all have issues.. small or big.. it doesn’t matter. What counts are the things we are able to take away from them. Uncomfortable situations make us think.. they test our ability to decipher right from wrong. They make us responsible for the consequences of our decision.

Tough people emerge from life’s biggest challenges.

Now what? Is my life perfect? Yes it is. I have just enough problems to solve.. just enough issues to face and just enough frustrations to overcome.

The question now is how to live a “perfect” life. I guess, I just got to have faith.

I remain,

Gladz

061508

Waiting… it is an act of patience… a form of sacrifice… a display of dedication… and a way of fulfilling a promise.

When you look forward to something, you feel the excitement and the longing for the very reason why you wait. Not everyone is capable of waiting.. it’s true that sometimes it will take it’s toll on you but your faith will keep you from snapping and will keep you going.

It’s not always “wait and see”… most of the time it’s “wait, do something and then see”. Sure, it will take a lot of effort but at the end of it all… it’s all worth it.

I have waited long enough.. long enough to realize my purpose on waiting.. long enough for me to stop now.. no I won’t stop. This is my passion.

I have only one reason to keep on waiting… that is a promise. A promise that in God’s perfect time, everything will fall into the right place. Who knows… it will be soon.

I remain..

Gladis

"The things I remember best are the things I wasn’t supposed to do but I did them anyways. And the things I regret the most are things I was supposed to do but I chose not to"

Bad Trip.

From time to time… I feel like this. Weird… hindi ko maexplain. Parang there’s a void in my life… I am looking for something pero hindi ko alam kung ano. Bigla ko tuloy naalala ung napanood ko saTV minsan. One local TV show had invited HIV positive guests.. one of them has his own blog site and there he posted something like:

"The two most important days in our lives are the day we were born and the day we knew why"

I just thought, maswerte pa din sya kahit may AIDS sya… it’s because he already knew his purpose… ang ibahagi ang kanyang karanasan sa iba para gawing leksyon ng buhay…

Eh ako kaya? I mean, ayoko naman magkaAIDS noh.. hindi naman ata un ang destiny ko… kidding aside, ano nga kaya ang purpose ko sa mundo? hmmmm….

Basta ngayon, I want to be inspired and give inspiration (naks!!!)… un lang muna for now.

carpe diem!!!

Far from what I usually do during this day of the year, I just stayed at home. Besides having been sick for the last two days, I just don’t really feel like going out. But sometimes, staying at home is the same as doing nothing.

Just when I’m close to getting bored… I came across a VCD which I bought two weeks ago.. I almost forgot about it :c)

It’s a movie based on a Nicholas Sparks’ novel entitled “Message in a Bottle”. A close friend of mine told me that it’s nice and I should see it. I thought that if it’s from Nicholas Sparks then it must be as good as “A Walk to Remember” and “The Notebook”.

It’s about Garret (played by Kevin Costner) who’s been grieving from the death of his wife, Catherine. He wrote letters for Catherine, one of those was found inside a bottle on a beach by Theresa (played by Robin Wright Penn).

She tracked and searched for the author of the message only to find herself falling in love with a man holding on very tight to the memory of his lost wife.

All throughout the movie, I felt something heavy on my chest. Every part, every scene is really made to draw mix emotions from the viewers. In fact, I remember having goose bumps especially when the letters are read… and there were about a dozen times when I felt like crying.

The ending is heartbreaking. I wished it had not ended that way. At any rate, it is still one of the best movies I have ever seen.

Let me quote Theresa’s memorable line at the end of the film:

“If some lives form a perfect circle, other take shape in ways we cannot predict or always understand. Loss has been part of my journey. But it has also shown me what is precious. So has love for which I can only be grateful.”